College Life

So I know I haven't added a new post in a while and I'm sorry about that. I just have been really buisy. But to catch you up on life, I have successfully moved in on campus. I moved in on the 18th . It rained so hard that day! But it was worth it. I have made so many new friends already. The hardest thing about being on your own is realizing your on your own. If you mess up, then it's on you. You can't call mommy or daddy and blame them. You have to take responsibility on your own. Last night there were these crazy parties. And most of them got shut down. The smell of weed filled the air. Alcohol was on everyones lungs. Bodies merged together and swayed to the music the DJ was playing. The lights seemed to bounce off each other, entertwining as they displayed their brilliant colors. Strings of broken hearts and one night stands gathered in the dark . The night was their time. My friends struggled to keep control of themselves and I felt as if I was on the outside looking in. My heart beated with anxiousness as each bang of the door entered the air. I was not intoxicated but I could not help but close my eyes and add myself to the mix. My body swayed to the left an the right as the music boomed through the speakers. But I knew it was time to go. I said my goodbyes, and just as soon as I left security came. Always listen to your gut feeling. It wont lead you wrong. Peace , Love , and Positivitey.

Almost There

Hey fam. I'm sitting on my step mothers bed in her new apartment with my sister and her two sons, my precious nephews. We're all watching All Dogs Go To Heaven. These are the moments I will miss the most. I'm struggling to come to terms that these people, my family members are the people I will miss the most. ALl my life I couldn't wait to get away from people that I know. But it's hard coming to terms that I wont see them as much as I want. My mothers have become my best friends. My sister also. I tell them everything. And I found Kevin, my step dad to be more of a father than my real one. He's a huge role model in my life. I don't know everything that will happen in the future, but it's loogking very bright. I have a new work study job, a little extra change, and all my paper work is set. I'm on my way to success. Are you with me? Stay positive. Peace, Love, and Positivitey (: Stay blessed !

Love, Forgive, & LIVE

Today I recieved a phone call from my father. I never had a strong relationship with my dad. We've constantly argued and fought. But today he called me and told me that he was sorry. He told me that he loved me and always believed in me. He stated he was proud and wanted to see me before I left for college. Hours of crying and heartfelt moments we resolved our problems and execpted each other. You have to love and forgive people. Not for them, but for yourself. Live, Love, Peace, & Positivitey .

Honest Advice

Not much to say today ; just some words of advice. Love yourself before you try to love someone else. Protect your heart.

All You Need Is Friends & Family

I had  a rough night last night. My boyfriend of a year now broke up with me and I was feeling really down. I woke up the next morning and I didn't even want to get out of bed. I dragged my feet to the bathroom and hoped in the shower. My little sister and cousin , Lilly & Kennedy, invited me to play Mario Kart on the Wii but I declined. They then proceeded to beg me so I gave in. I was playing that game and then i found a smile on my face. They cheered me on as I turned the corners of all the stages and won each race. My best friend Jernee called and invited me to an outing. So we left the house and drove around town. Talk about fun! Just what the doctor ordered ! I felt way better. So when ever you're feeling down get out and about. You'll feel way better. Love , Peace, and Positivitey fam (:

More SelfLESSness

My aunt, her daughter, and her husband came into town yesterday. I had to pack up all of my things and move out of my room. It took weeks for me to pack up all of my belongings. When they finally got here I had to sleep in the cold basement on the uncomfortable futon. I woke up at 4 o'clock in the morning due to the discomfort and decided to move to the couch. The discomfort was the same. When I finally woke up my back was aching. It still is as I post this. I'm trying to stay positive, but it's hard. My anger is getting the best of me so I'm trying to vent. I only have two more weeks till I move to Norfolk. I'm not sure I can hold out till then.